I lie awake at night thinking about them…. It hurts because I loved them so much and they never really got to hear my side of the story. Not that they would have ever believed me. I miss them so very badly. Maybe because I got closer to them than the one I was even in a relationship with….

I miss Trent’s parents and his sister. Badly. Tonight, I was looking up the phone number for his dad’s dental practice…He was my dentist for 3 years….And I need to have my records moved. I have been putting this off…for so long.

And while googling it tonight, found he had a website for his practice now. With him right on the front. The man I almost considered to be my father in law already. He and his wife meant so much to me.

They always loved me more than Trent did, though….

I always wish they really knew the truth. I also know they would have been proud of me doing so well in school.

But again. I don’t think I could ever share the truth with them. Most because I couldn’t bare to bring HIM back into my life again…and because I am almost certain that they would think I am lying….Unless….

They saw the pictures….

Which I still have some of…..