I am ten pounds lighter than I was at Christmas. Ten pounds lighter than I was in this picture…

(seen here with my brother - dang, I hate this picture…I look so heavy for me. :p)

But now I am stuck. Stuck stuck stuck. Even a couple of days with a stomach bug didn't even budge the scale.  MAYBE a pound, but that's about it. I've been watching what I am eating. Drink mostly water.  And try to exercise 2-3 days a week.  But maybe I'm not exercising hard enough. Or maybe I'm eating too many carbs. 

I'm certainly not heavy or anything.  I am actually at the weight I was at about 1 year ago. I am hoping to get down to what I was nearly two years ago…Which leaves me 7+ pounds left to go. I want to reach my goal so badly, but I'm afraid that won't happen. 

I'm 25 and the metabolism has slowed. Sigh….It isn't possible that I have already plateaued is it?? If so, that means I have to kick it up a notch. Or twelve. Hopefully, my new found interest in running will help. . .

Oh, well….

I have no clue what happened. I had a great weekend and then woke up early early this morning SICKER than a dog. :p 

Anywho, I'll spare you the details of the sickness. Just know that I am still feeling queasy and the sight of food is not appealing right now.

Yeah, so….

GREAT party, by the way, on Saturday. I was an anxious MESS, but Trent's parents were AMAZING and helped with 99% of the set up. Plus extra food.  I'll go more in details about that later because, again, food is not helping the cause at the moment. 

All in all, Trent's parents love mine and vice versa. 

Then we were exhausted yesterday.  E X H A U S T E D. I went to visit the family for a little while, who I suspect I picked the bug up from. Blech.

I somehow had the energy yesterday to help Trent clean a bit around the house, then headed home. To run. Lol…I started the Couch to 5K challenge. That can be found here. It's a 9 week program. I think I can handle that.  It's a little over 3 miles that I'll work up to. I really think I can do this. 

One of my guests at the party….A chick I went to highschool with and she now is a mother of twins and has run 3 marathons. One she even finished while breaking her leg. Yes, my friends. She had somehow gotten a stress fracture and FINISHED it in under 6 hours. Craziness, I tell you!

But hopefully, I can find a 5k this fall to run…..

My roommate thinks that rollerblading is better….And maybe it is…But in thirty minutes yesterday of combined run/walk intervals versus thirty minutes of rollerblading? I feel the muscles. They are semi-sore and already feel a tad tighter. Especially the booty. Can we say bootylicious within weeks???

That's all. I'm going to bed now. Seriously.

• get over stomach bug
• get over stomach bug
• sleep
• finish resume for grad school application
• get over stomach bug
• figure out what i want to do for the rest of my life, career wise
• finish resume?
• get over stomach bug

going back to the couch now.

Not the most creative, because I did not make them myself (I'm too busy and lazy…). I am having my college graduation party tomorrow and instead of a sheetcake, I had cupcakes made.  36 total - 1/2 vanilla and 1/2 chocolate with vanilla frosting (dyed a lovely shade of blue). They have a little sugar cap/diploma piece on top, but you can't really tell that is what it is. 

They are ok but I think I could have found a cuter decoration if I had looked for one myself. :p Oh, well…You can't beat it for .60 cents a piece! Click the pic to see them larger!

I have a few great online friends. Which, of course, is great. But it's so
difficult. Much harder than a “real life” friend that you can see in person
on a regular basis. You never know if you've offended them in any way…Or
if they don't get your internet humor/sarcastic-ness. Or something. I
can't put my finger on it, but I feel like I've offended someone somehow.

Hmm…..

was a tad craptastic, actually near the end.  i am feeling TONS better than i had been and i'm putting the blame on too much crap that i've been eating. i usually watch a very close diet, for my stomach's sake. on Sunday, though, we had gone out to dinner and i splurged on a lamb gyro, french fries…a 16oz beer…and then….a super delicious chocolate martini. my stomach hurt for two days after that. i'm betting the IBS didn't enjoy the good food. oh, well. i won't even really be splurging at my own party…we're not having too much unhealthy stuff, actually.  

- subway party sub
- veggie tray
- pasta salad
- 2 other unidentified salads (T's mom is making…)
- fresh fruit
- MAYBE shrimp cocktail
- MAYBE cocktail meatballs
- tortilla chips and salsa
- potato chips and dip (the one thing I will so SPLURGE ON…LOVE FRENCH ONION DIP)
- Soda/Pop (whatever you call it….i guess it depends on where you live…i call it POP)
- Beer (Trent isn't buying the top of the line stuff. Blech.)
- CUPCAKES! (I'm having made! :D)
- White Wine

It's going to be so crazy. I'm SOOOO EXCITED!

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Didn't I say i was going to talk about my day? LOL….I had to get a little cavity filled today. I'm not sure where they got the notion that I was OK with them giving me a shot of novacaine. I hate the stuff with a passion.  That is the absolute worst about having work done.  My new dentist and his assistant were SO DARN NICE and really kept me calm. I was nearly in tears as he gave me my shot. It hurt so freaking bad. I used to have this one dentist that did it so perfectly and it rarely hurt — but it's too long of a drive now to see him.
Anyway. Novacaine has a crappy effect on me. It gives me a slight panic attack and makes me SOOOO SHAKY. Which I hate and dread. I did pretend, however, that I was more numb than they thought I was….they were prepared to give me a second shot, but I was not letting that happen. During the drilling, I felt a slight little twinge and jumped too much. I had to pretend it was only the noise getting to me. He was getting a little too quick on grabbing another dose. I got through the actual  drilling and fill part within 15 minutes.  

The numbness has worn off. But now my mouth and jaw are SO FREAKING sore.  He shot it practically in the side of my tongue…The after pain has spread into my throat. Yuck.  

I just hate the dentist. Cleanings do NOT bother me….But this stuff does….

I go next week for my ortho consult. We'll see how thatbgoes and if I'm going to be able to afford braces.

…..stomach pain. It just hurts. And I try not to eat and then it hurts
worse….Then I do eat…and it still hurts. This is darn ridiculous. I
will see my doctor for a follow up in August. I can NOT wait. I just do
not think the diagnosis of IBS is even close to being accurate. NOT EVEN
CLOSE. It's not normal to have to take a pain pill two days in a row for
IBS. Is it?? That's all I want to do. Take one…then get cozy in bed to
watch TV (though, I'm not sad to be missing Days lately…I watch it
sometimes in the evenings on the soap channel and BLECH…not liking this
reenactment of Colleen and Santo or whatever…).

I am really struggling today to maintain my composure and stay at work. I so
want to go home.

“Blurting out too much information, or TMI, is something we're becoming more
and more comfortable with, some psychologists
say. We obsess over the mundane
details of celebrities' lives and are eager to tell our own stories on blogs
and Flickr accounts. And often, all that online openness seeps into everyday
conversations.” From MSNBC

So is THAT way I'm so interested in telling about my life online?? Because
I'm obsessed with the details of celebrities' lives?? I hardly think so.
That seriously has to be the most ridiculous thing I have EVER heard. At
least for myself…Maybe for you?? Lol…

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Well, it was a strange weekend. My book came (and I read it all), my uncle
died of esophageal cancer, and I had a flat tire yesterday, which took
Wal-mart (the only place open in my side of town for tires) 3 hours to
replace.

I have the worst stomach ache; in trying to cheer my up, my loving boyfriend
took me to dinner with a couple of friends, and fed me a lamb gyro (yum),
and a chocolate martini. Both things are definitely NOT on my diet. I am
now stuck at work trying to figure out what's going on for the rest of the
week. When's the funeral/memorial? Can I get off of work?? I was supposed to
leave early on Friday because I have my graduation party to deal with (which
is Saturday).

Sigh…

Well, I completed the book. I got it Saturday afternoon and someone
managed, though, I have no idea HOW, to finish it all. I'm not sure how I
feel about it, but I certainly have plenty opinions.

But I won't say anything really, in respect for those who have yet to read
it. I may later…Under a cut of course.

It's partly what I was expecting and partly not. That's all for now.

At least the movie, if done right, should be great. There's plenty of
action to keep one's attention focused.

Argh. My own “I hate Dell” post.
My power cord totally died tonight. I've had the PC a year. I know for sure it's the power cord because the light is NOT coming on. But you know what the stupid thing is???? I went to reorder one and the power adapter and cord are SEPARATE. The problem is that I'm not sure if it is the adapter…or the actual power cord… !@#&@!#(!@&$….So to find out, I had to pay out $50 tonight…and won't know for 3-7 business days when they finally arrive.  My last cord on my last  computer was STILL going strong at 4 years old. Do you suppose that it could have gotten slightly messed up if I accidently left it plugged in the wall, while NOT plugged into the PC? I've heard crazy stuff like that…..SIgh..I just thought it was because it was hot. But it's nice and cool now….I'm JUST SO MAD. Not even being able to buy a dress for my grad party next week in a juniors MEDIUM can put me in a better mood (PS: Usually, when buying cute junior's clothes at Kohl's, I have to buy a large. :p)

First of all, I'm not 100% certain how I'm going to get along without a PC. I really don't like using the roommate's. It's old. Slow. And *sheepish* I didn't ask permission to be using it RIGHT NOW, but she is not answering her phone and I PROMISE that . I won't snoop and just surf the net.  Anywho…At least she's not home that often. Lol….I'm sure I'll also be on “my” pc at Trent's. (He has two PC's…His brand new one and his old one that is loaded with TheSims2 stuff….that I haven't even played since…hmm…..March? April? I just surf the net with it really.)

But seriously, I hate Dell. $50 for REBURBISHED EQUIPMENT. I know, I probably could have gotten it cheaper elsewhere, but I still have my line of credit open and just put it on there for now. 

In fact, just because I can, I'm going to look up the equipment on google or ebay. If I ufind it cheap, I'll return the Dell stuff.
BUT THEY STILL SUCK!!!!!

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Edited @ 8:47 pm
I'm an idiot. If I SERIOUSLY need a PC, I have a work provided laptop to drag around if need be. Sweet. I'm such a dork. And it's an IBM not a craptastic Dell.

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Edited @ 10:55pm

Um, yeah.  Now it's working again. This is idiotic. WHAT THE HECK??